This title may allude to a myriad of subjects
depending on the reader’s point of reference.
I shall clue you in that I had a beloved dog and this is his tribute.
All legs and prancing on the other side of the
pet store window, he wasn’t our first choice for another family member. I had chosen a petite greyhound, the breed
which doesn’t run the track chasing after the bunny. As we had multiple pets already, this addition
seemed perfect in size and temperament until…the pet counselor stated that any
rough housing by well -meaning established family pets could result in a broken
leg. Well, next!
Erik, our then 2nd grader (I think),
fawned over this puppy. So we asked to
meet him. We left the store with him being mostly all
legs, docked tail and grey colored short coat in my arms. He stayed in Erik’s
lap all the way home.
Having researched the breed and being
captivated by the “grey ghost” description, “Shadow” was the perfect name. A hunting breed and loyal
to family, the Weimeraner joined our family.
Never had one, didn’t worry about his fitting
in. We’ve always had multiple animals
and never really researched the breed standard.
Yes, he was definitely one of us. We never discriminate, dogs are people, too.
He lived 12 years, did his best to raise our
son and daughter and remained the only male of our “pack” for the last 8 to 10
years. He passed away a year ago last month. At least his physical presence
did.
To explain and share the remaining story, you
must be open to the realm of possible. This open ended frame of mind is rather
new to me. I chose it over the
comfortable religious indoctrination of previous generations.
I am spiritual and now understand the
connection to all living things and the interplay which creates a constant
unfolding of my destiny.
There are sacred spaces in my home. They are in yours, too. Some are hidden and do not speak, some are
deliberate and beckon the rituals of daily living.
My kitchen sink is one. I can hand wash all the dishes and cookware,
utensils and glasses while I meditate.
The double sink (wash on the right, rinse on the left) and dish rack,
the designated dish sponge, refillable round scrub gadget, the constant
streaming of really hot water all coerce me into a semi -comatose state of
“well it’s been a successful day” kind of thinking. I can stand there and
stretch my calves and roll my head from side to side. When finished, I can wipe my dimpled hands on
the towel, hung just below the counter lip, and go about my evening. The dried items will be waiting when I
return…later…or maybe in the morning.
The conservatory is another of my sacred
spaces. It houses my concert grand
piano. Shadow’s spirit is there…under
the massive ebony instrument. He laid there whenever I played, back legs just
near enough to the foot pedals to cause me to miss the sustain pedal. Oh well, my practices were not for public
viewing, I could pretend that the phrasing was as intended by any of my
favorite classical composers.
The other dogs gather under and around my feet
now, but there is a cavernous space, almost as if it were outlined, where the
dogs do not cross.
Several weeks before he died, a corner in my
office/parlor garnered his attention.
Curios because there had always been a two cushion love seat neatly and
snugly fitted on the wall, leaving maybe 5 inches space to the wall seam. He
would just stand facing the corner, intent on…well…I don’t know. The other side
of the wall behind the back of the love seat was the staircase with crawlspace
underneath. There’s nothing in the crawl
space; hasn’t been for the last 15 years. He would
just stand and when his curiosity passed, would
lie down and study whatever I was doing.
He never tried to squeeze his 96 pounds into
the corner and he never sniffed about the love seat as I would predict a hunting
dog would do. He never chased one of the cats behind the furniture, there was
no hidden bone under the skirt of the sofa for him to guard.
This was his sacred space. I cannot explain his
choosing that exact location.
My remaining quartet of aging dogs have their
territories. We have exactly two small
rugs and I often find them piled together a top one. When the sun streams through one of our south
facing windows, each will claim the warmth for themselves and only share if
necessary. The Schnauzer will find an unoccupied chair and call dibs. Our female Weimeraner will pounce with as
much stealth as possible on the king size bed and the elderly pug will seek out
her even older terrier pal to snuggle up.
Recently, during a grueling 7 months of
surgeries and therapies, our other Weimy has discovered Shadow’s corner. She visits; doesn’t stay but rather returns
to her previous activity in other rooms in the house. It doesn’t matter if I am in the room, she
comes as if she is honoring his memory.
Today the Pug came and toured the sacred space,
being purposeful and slow to not bump into the wicker chair and table which
have replaced the love seat. She’s
visually challenged and her advanced years make any journey problematic if she
pauses too long.
This beloved room, in the front of my house, is
filled with mementos of my life and shares square footage with the necessary
technology which keeps my life organized.
His presence is comforting and I am reminded of what unconditional love
should be.
As we go about our daily lives, are we being guided and nurtured from beyond our understanding? If we open our hearts and share this lifetime with animal companions, are their journeys similarly directed? These questions are for your benefit. I already know.
My Shadow is keeping vigil.
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